It has recently come to my attention that the Bush Administration has put out a new [executive] order. The secretary of treasury has been given the affirmative to "seize the property of any person who undermines efforts to promote economic reconstruction and political reform in Iraq." Read here. As it is, I have yet to see any U.S. papers report (or comment) on this; as can be said for the U.S. news as well.
... what can I say? In today's day and age, we try to enforce many different aspects of our constitution. But, in the process, we lose many of the freedoms granted to us through these means. The fact that the American people do nothing to stop these injustices does not make it any better. I do not know how many liberations we shall lose before enough step up...
Now, I'd venture to say that some of my readers might disagree with me. Of course, opinions are your own but I might try to sway you :) Our government is not exactly 'nice' per se. They can be unpredictable (and most definitely corrupt in some cases), so at a single sign of protest, you could be out on the streets or unwillingly accepting charity from a close family member. I'm sorry to say that I don't trust the American sovereignty. Being as that is, I get the feeling that those that do rebel against the war (no matter how much or how little) will be hounded by governmental officials. I always thought to say that America is going to the dogs on a silver platter....
~Epoch [z]
p.s. I've gotten a blood test... results shall be in soon.
7.27.2007
7.13.2007
Times of Torment
Well... looks like this post, like my last, will have no reflection on my thoughts. It seems that I'm showing various symptoms related to diabetes. Unfortunately, my family has a long history of diabetes. My cousin having been diagnosed only a few years ago. As well as this, my grandma and a few of my aunts have this disease as well. I suppose I'll be informing my mother because it's begun to get out of hand. I believe it's time I see a doctor and spoke to him/her about my suspicions. Hopefully though, it stays just that, a suspicion. I really haven't got a desire to stick myself with a needle various times a day (although I don't suppose anyone does). I'll admit I'm kind of scared. As I can see, these are the symptoms that have decided to make themselves known.
-Frequent Urination
-Fatigue
-Odd Aches and Pains
-Vaginal Yeast Infection (<--- that would be the big tip off I'm thinking. From what I've read, I have one, and have had them for the past year or so)
-Irritability (generally I'm very mellow)
-Tingling in the feet (from what I've read, it sound similar to the numbness felt when the foot or hands 'fall asleep'. This happens to my foot and/or feet various times a day)
-Cramping (despite the fact that I'm not on my period or PMSing)
I'll be truthful with you and say that I'm kind of scared. I'm tired of having to constantly go to the bathroom, I'm tired of snapping at my family because I can't seem to get in a good mood, I'm tired of waking up and experiences queer little pains that stem from nothing throughout the day, I'm tired of having to put ice on my foot (or feet) just because it 'feel asleep' for the 5th time today, I'm tired of being pissy because of goddamned cramps when I'm not even on my period, but most of all I'm scared shitless when I wake up and feel that another bump (or boil, or wart, whatever you call it) has shown up in my vaginal area. Gods they hurt like hell. I know it's not genital herpes, I've never had sex. Intercourse, oral, or otherwise. For goodness sake, I've never even kissed a boy. I'm scared, scared, scared. Frightened, whatever. I'm hoping upon every hope that I'm just being paranoid, but the truth is, I've got to face reality. Everything is going against me. Family history, the symptoms. All I need is the doctor to verify the situation. I don't intend on dropping dead so I think I'll take a visit to the doc before I hit the body bag.
~Epoch [z]
-Frequent Urination
-Fatigue
-Odd Aches and Pains
-Vaginal Yeast Infection (<--- that would be the big tip off I'm thinking. From what I've read, I have one, and have had them for the past year or so)
-Irritability (generally I'm very mellow)
-Tingling in the feet (from what I've read, it sound similar to the numbness felt when the foot or hands 'fall asleep'. This happens to my foot and/or feet various times a day)
-Cramping (despite the fact that I'm not on my period or PMSing)
I'll be truthful with you and say that I'm kind of scared. I'm tired of having to constantly go to the bathroom, I'm tired of snapping at my family because I can't seem to get in a good mood, I'm tired of waking up and experiences queer little pains that stem from nothing throughout the day, I'm tired of having to put ice on my foot (or feet) just because it 'feel asleep' for the 5th time today, I'm tired of being pissy because of goddamned cramps when I'm not even on my period, but most of all I'm scared shitless when I wake up and feel that another bump (or boil, or wart, whatever you call it) has shown up in my vaginal area. Gods they hurt like hell. I know it's not genital herpes, I've never had sex. Intercourse, oral, or otherwise. For goodness sake, I've never even kissed a boy. I'm scared, scared, scared. Frightened, whatever. I'm hoping upon every hope that I'm just being paranoid, but the truth is, I've got to face reality. Everything is going against me. Family history, the symptoms. All I need is the doctor to verify the situation. I don't intend on dropping dead so I think I'll take a visit to the doc before I hit the body bag.
~Epoch [z]
7.08.2007
Tagged...
It appears that I have been tagged by a fellow blogger. I'll try this thing, but first, here's the rules (which apparently, you have to put before you first tidbit of info).
The Rules: "Each person posts the rules before their list, then they list 8 things about themselves. At the end of the post, that person tags and links to 8 other people and then visits those peoples' sites and comments letting them know that they have been tagged, and to come read the post, so they know what they have to do."
I think that I really haven't told anything about me since I started this blog. Just my thoughts and such. They are in no real order, just as they came to mind. Now, let's delve into my secret passions.
1) I am African American- It's one thing I've neglected to tell my readers just because of the reaction I get sometimes when people find out about my race.
2) I love to dance- I dance to any kind of music... anytime and everywhere. I especially like hip hop and r&b.
3)Singing... I wasn't created to do such a thing. I'd venture to say if my voice get's any worse (is it even possible?) the people of Earth are going to have to go and inhabit a new planet.
4)Art is something I've always been passionate about. Drawing and writing and even just looking and commenting on other pieces is something I do all the time. Here's a little something I sketched up and scanned a while ago.
6)I'm very anal retentive. It's a milder form of OCD. Sometimes, things just have to be perfect with me. My mom get embarrassed when we go to the store and I start rearranging boxes of cereal or putting things in there right place. This also pertains to restaurants in which I can't help but be excessively neat in the way my table setting is.
Yes, it bothers the crap outta me
7)I'm not good at talking to people. In my elementary days I was bullied so I kind of receded into myself during middle school. I had friends but didn't talk much. Now, going into my sophomore year of high school, it's becoming easier but I'm still pretty quiet.
8)I am the most sarcastic person you'll ever meet. Seriously, here on blogger I tone it down to pretty much nothing but everywhere I else... I'm a beast.
Okie dokie, there's that for you. Now for the 8 people. This'll be hard, I don't think I watch that many people :P
1)First is Graham. I cheated I know, he already did one :P
2)Next is Somegirl. Just because she is one of the wittiest (although she prefers slightly neurotic) writers I know.
3)And Hannah. Man, I love the name of this girls blog. Not to mention this could be interesting.
4)JILL SMOLINSKI. I dunno know if she will do it, but it could be interesting.
5)Paper Fan Club. Another one of those iffy ones, but she's got a great blog.
6)-Spaceman Spiff-. Wow, I've only read him recently, but his posts have got me hooked. Reminds me of The Dude... connection?
7)J.L. Murphy, doubt she'll do it either but I gotta put someone on the list.
8)Rizzo, hasn't posted in quite sometime. Perhaps...
Whew, there we go. A little about me.
The Rules: "Each person posts the rules before their list, then they list 8 things about themselves. At the end of the post, that person tags and links to 8 other people and then visits those peoples' sites and comments letting them know that they have been tagged, and to come read the post, so they know what they have to do."
I think that I really haven't told anything about me since I started this blog. Just my thoughts and such. They are in no real order, just as they came to mind. Now, let's delve into my secret passions.
1) I am African American- It's one thing I've neglected to tell my readers just because of the reaction I get sometimes when people find out about my race.
2) I love to dance- I dance to any kind of music... anytime and everywhere. I especially like hip hop and r&b.
3)Singing... I wasn't created to do such a thing. I'd venture to say if my voice get's any worse (is it even possible?) the people of Earth are going to have to go and inhabit a new planet.
4)Art is something I've always been passionate about. Drawing and writing and even just looking and commenting on other pieces is something I do all the time. Here's a little something I sketched up and scanned a while ago.
5)I'm deathly afraid of crickets... they have always been evil disgusting creatures that make annoying noises.
6)I'm very anal retentive. It's a milder form of OCD. Sometimes, things just have to be perfect with me. My mom get embarrassed when we go to the store and I start rearranging boxes of cereal or putting things in there right place. This also pertains to restaurants in which I can't help but be excessively neat in the way my table setting is.
Yes, it bothers the crap outta me
7)I'm not good at talking to people. In my elementary days I was bullied so I kind of receded into myself during middle school. I had friends but didn't talk much. Now, going into my sophomore year of high school, it's becoming easier but I'm still pretty quiet.
8)I am the most sarcastic person you'll ever meet. Seriously, here on blogger I tone it down to pretty much nothing but everywhere I else... I'm a beast.
Okie dokie, there's that for you. Now for the 8 people. This'll be hard, I don't think I watch that many people :P
1)First is Graham. I cheated I know, he already did one :P
2)Next is Somegirl. Just because she is one of the wittiest (although she prefers slightly neurotic) writers I know.
3)And Hannah. Man, I love the name of this girls blog. Not to mention this could be interesting.
4)JILL SMOLINSKI. I dunno know if she will do it, but it could be interesting.
5)Paper Fan Club. Another one of those iffy ones, but she's got a great blog.
6)-Spaceman Spiff-. Wow, I've only read him recently, but his posts have got me hooked. Reminds me of The Dude... connection?
7)J.L. Murphy, doubt she'll do it either but I gotta put someone on the list.
8)Rizzo, hasn't posted in quite sometime. Perhaps...
Whew, there we go. A little about me.
7.07.2007
My Nation
I have a lot of respect for my country despite what has happened this last decade or so. I respect America because this is MY country. We're in a war against terrrorism, sickness, poverty, racism; every single little thing in the world. Yet this remains to be where I live and where I reside. I don't like that we're fighting in Iraq and losing OUR men and women to those who think that they can come and fuck up our country. I hate that, yet I respect that they continue to fight for us.
I haven't got a shred of respect for people who think they can come and talk shit about America. Sure, it can go back to stereotypes and stuff, but more importantly it's lack of any kind of knowledge. People like that don't have knowledge of who we ARE. Every single place in the world (except maybe Antarctica) has poverty. Even America. We've got people living on the street begging for pennies... yes pennies. I feel disgusted.... saddened.... depressed that this is the place I live. I'm horrified that I can go home and pretend like nothing's wrong with our world when there are people fighting just to stay alive a couple of miles down the road. In the U.S.A., we run our nation based upon a democracy but that doesn't mean we don't have problems as well.
How many billions of dollars does our nation spend on foreign aid every year when, even in our own place of residence, we can't help ourselves? You people that think that living in America is just all fun and games... laid back living.... get a clue. Everybody lives in hell, some of us just like to cover up the heat with nice things. I'm not saying that us American's are better than anybody else, because we're not. And where anyone can think that I have no idea. I wasn't sheltered when I was a child. I lived in a nice home but I grew up watching the news and by now you should know that that's the worse thing to do to a child. 6 years ago I was 9 years old and watched people jump off a 110 story building at the cost of their lives.They were so desperate... wanting to live at the cost of broken legs... broken arms... fractured skulls... We lost a lot of people in 9/11. It's sad, I'm crying right now because I hate to think about it. But I WILL think about it, not because it fuels my anger but because that's why we are fighting. Because of 9/11.
Our school systems are less than glorious... I know that. I live in a state with one of the worst education systems in America. I wish we could take some of that money from foreign aid and help my own education but that would be selfish. At least I am getting an education because if I wasn't I don't know what I'd do. We've got slums and ghettos. We've got aids and influenza. We've got every possible little thing going wrong and yet we still help out elsewhere.
So if you're one of those people who think that America is a bunch of rich snobs, then I suggest you shove it. I'm tired of hearing that bullshit. Before you even think of bashing MY... no, OUR country, perhaps you should come down here and check it out yourself. And for those of you who don't live in an ignorant little fantasy, thank you. You've got more respect from me than I give to most. I love my country, and I'll stand by it's side till the end. It's bad now... there's no paradise where I reside, but still. This is my country and if you insist on degrading it then I suggest you find another ear because I'm not taking anymore of it.
~Epoch [z]
I haven't got a shred of respect for people who think they can come and talk shit about America. Sure, it can go back to stereotypes and stuff, but more importantly it's lack of any kind of knowledge. People like that don't have knowledge of who we ARE. Every single place in the world (except maybe Antarctica) has poverty. Even America. We've got people living on the street begging for pennies... yes pennies. I feel disgusted.... saddened.... depressed that this is the place I live. I'm horrified that I can go home and pretend like nothing's wrong with our world when there are people fighting just to stay alive a couple of miles down the road. In the U.S.A., we run our nation based upon a democracy but that doesn't mean we don't have problems as well.
How many billions of dollars does our nation spend on foreign aid every year when, even in our own place of residence, we can't help ourselves? You people that think that living in America is just all fun and games... laid back living.... get a clue. Everybody lives in hell, some of us just like to cover up the heat with nice things. I'm not saying that us American's are better than anybody else, because we're not. And where anyone can think that I have no idea. I wasn't sheltered when I was a child. I lived in a nice home but I grew up watching the news and by now you should know that that's the worse thing to do to a child. 6 years ago I was 9 years old and watched people jump off a 110 story building at the cost of their lives.They were so desperate... wanting to live at the cost of broken legs... broken arms... fractured skulls... We lost a lot of people in 9/11. It's sad, I'm crying right now because I hate to think about it. But I WILL think about it, not because it fuels my anger but because that's why we are fighting. Because of 9/11.
Our school systems are less than glorious... I know that. I live in a state with one of the worst education systems in America. I wish we could take some of that money from foreign aid and help my own education but that would be selfish. At least I am getting an education because if I wasn't I don't know what I'd do. We've got slums and ghettos. We've got aids and influenza. We've got every possible little thing going wrong and yet we still help out elsewhere.
So if you're one of those people who think that America is a bunch of rich snobs, then I suggest you shove it. I'm tired of hearing that bullshit. Before you even think of bashing MY... no, OUR country, perhaps you should come down here and check it out yourself. And for those of you who don't live in an ignorant little fantasy, thank you. You've got more respect from me than I give to most. I love my country, and I'll stand by it's side till the end. It's bad now... there's no paradise where I reside, but still. This is my country and if you insist on degrading it then I suggest you find another ear because I'm not taking anymore of it.
~Epoch [z]
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